The Mountain Goats: No Children

I hope that our few remaining friends
Give up on trying to save us
I hope we come up with a failsafe plot
To piss off the dumb few that forgave us
I hope the fences we mended
Fall down beneath their own weight
And I hope we hang on past the last exit
I hope it's already too late

And I hope the junkyard a few blocks from here
Someday burns down
And I hope the rising black smoke carries me far away
And I never come back to this town again
In my life
I hope I lie
And tell everyone you were a good wife
And I hope you die
I hope we both die

I hope I cut myself shaving tomorrow
I hope it bleeds all day long
Our friends say it's darkest before the sun rises
We're pretty sure they're all wrong

I hope it stays dark forever
I hope the worst isn't over
And I hope you blink before I do
And I hope I never get sober

And I hope when you think of me years down the line
You can't find one good thing to say
And I'd hope that if I found the strength to walk out
You'd stay the hell out of my way

I am drowning
There's no sign of land
You are coming down with me
Hand in unlovable hand
And I hope you die
I hope we both die


James Callaghan: I'm Not Comfortable Inside My Mind

All the things that I know now are wrong
Maybe one day will all seem OK
Will I abandon part of who I am
And though I never want to go that way
The temptation is always there
And to change the only sign of life
And when I look inside myself I find
I'm not comfortable within my mind

Told that men are merely sperm machines
If we're mindless can we take the blame
I'm not mindless I'm a human being
And I feel and make mistakes the same
All the stupid things I can't make up for
Maybe I do love you after all
And when I look inside myself I find
I'm not comfortable inside my mind

The things I know are wrong but don't know why
How can I ever hope to explain?
Will I ever need to justify them to myself?
Can I trust myself to how I feel?
Maybe one day I won't be enough
Sometimes I think I don't feel at all
And when I look inside myself I find
I'm not comfortable inside my mind

The only things we ever learn is that we care
About some arbitrary cause to die
Pass it on and it will never end
Maybe all I need to do is pray
Nothing I say doesn't sound juvenile
I'm not comfortable inside my mind
Is this music all I'll leave behind
I'm not comfortable within my mind


The Mountain Goats: Old College Try

From the housetops to the gutters
From the ocean to the shore
The warning signs have all been bright and garish
Far too great in number to ignore
From the cities to the swamplands
From the highways to the hills
Our love has never had a leg to stand on
From the Asprins to the crosstops to the Elavils

But I will walk
  down to the end
  with you
If you will come
  all the way down
  with me

From the entrance to the exit
Is longer than it looks from where we stand
I want to say I'm sorry for stuff I haven't done yet
Things will shortly get completely out of hand
I can feel it in the rotten air tonight
In the tips of my fingers
In the skin on my face
In the weak last gasp of the evening's dying light
In the way those eyees I've always loved
Illuminate this place
Like a trashcan fire in a prison cell
Like the searchlights in the parking lots of hell

I will walk
  down to the end
  with you
If you will come
  all the way down
  with me